“There are your fog people & your sun people, he said. I said I wasn't sure which kind I was. He nodded. Fog'll do that to you, he said.” ~ Brian Andreas
I'd like to think of myself as more of a sun person. I think that's the way most people see me anyway. And I feel pretty "sunny" most of the time. But sometimes, like most people I think, I let the fog control me, in my head, and that shows on the outside. It ages me, it changes my expression, it affects my actions, and these are the times I tend to withdraw.
During those times, I really struggle with myself. I try to break out of my fog, which only seems to pull me down further because I worry too much about it. And then it's a vicious cycle. We've all been there. I go more than some, less than others. Life isn't "easy" for anyone and there are always bumps in the road. My head tells me this and I try to be reasonable but honestly I'd rather the fog go away forever because it just isn't pretty. I like for things to be pretty.
But the other day while I was walking the Seawall, I saw something amazing and realized that I had been worried all along for nothing. You see, the perfect mixture of the sun and the fog can be a beautiful thing. You just have to make sure that the sun shines brightly through the fog and know that light is always stronger than darkness but it's OK to feel both every once in awhile.
I definitely feel that I'm a sun person now. The fog comes and goes, but as long as I shine bright enough, it will all be beautiful in the end.