Mommy works and worries! That's what Moms do. We've had a rough day and the babies were tired. They don't nap often and I rarely let them nap late in the evening, but I made an exception.
As they laid there, like beautiful bookends, I worked to catch up on the work day that I had all but missed. I was catching up but my mind was wandering...back to them. And so I sat, watching them, in awe of their beauty (open mouths, drool, and all) and I felt thankful to have them in my life. I am thankful to have them in my life every day, no matter how our day has been!
Bug got yellow at school! No big deal right? This little hot mess that causes so much turmoil at home but has been on green or SILVER (go Bug) every day since entering the big girl world of school, got yellow today. It stressed her out actually but it's not all her fault. She was worried and she was "off" today. I sent her to school anyway. And she got yellow. That was exhausting. But in my heart of hearts, I know she was "off" because her Bubby had another "spell" yesterday and she was worried.
You see, this has happened before. Almost exactly a year ago, Bubby woke up and couldn't walk. I don't mean he didn't know how to walk at the age of 2, I mean a child that ran and played could not walk at all! We were blown off by the ER, we were not referred to a specialist, we were told these were growing pains...for 10 days. Eventually it passed. For the past year, we have been event free.
But on Monday, Bubby couldn't walk again. He pulled himself around on his arms, and I carried him as I called doctor upon doctor that didn't want to see him until the end of the week. It only lasted about 2 hours this time. Now he limps. His stiff peg leg is like that of a cartoon pirate. Fortunately he likes pirates so he has made a game of it.
But this week has been an internal battle to remain calm! No Mr. Doctor so and so, he's not faking it. He's 3! No Mrs. Nurse so and so, these are NOT growing pains. I have 6 kids, this is NOT what growing pains look like. Something is wrong and this shouldn't be happening. And thankfully today, I found a doctor that agrees. I found nurses that care. Tomorrow Bubby will get some tests done. We know there is no mass because xrays ruled that out. But something isn't right.
So we had a bad day. And Bug got yellow. And Bubby is a pirate with a peg leg. And I'm behind on work. And B had school. But tomorrow, I'm hoping for answers. Tonight? I just enjoy watching the babies as they sleep. But I worry, because that's what Moms do!