On this day 23 years ago, June 27, 1989, my life changed (9 months before that actually but who's counting?). This hot mess was born and I named her Bryana Lee. She was not in my life's plan. Far from it indeed. I was not intended to be a Mommy. I was going to be an actress or a famous writer...or both. I was not going to be "just a Mom". At that juncture in my life, I was young, I was smart, I was funny, I was beautiful. I would get my degree locally and then move on. I had already been accepted in to UCLA for my graduate work. Yes, I would be educated and I would be close to Hollywood. All of my plans were coming to fruition and life would pan out according to my blueprint.
But I was 21, living my dream, and the rabbit died. What? How could this happen to me? I had a plan and it would play out as I had dreamed it would. So what do I do? I'm knocked up. I'm working and I'm in college.
I have a baby, that's what I do, and I marry her father. I quit college to start my new life and I abandon my dreams of Hollywood and UCLA. I work hard, I go through my pregnancy and at the end of a long 9.5 month period, I see the most beautiful creature that has ever graced this planet. I am happy!
Five years later (horrible marriage and all), I gave birth to another beautiful baby girl. The marriage didn't last but my love for these 2 will never fade.
I married again years later and eventually had 2 more little ones who are now 5 and 3. Plus I have 2 "step children" that I gained in the mix. So is my life all glamor, glitter, and lights as I had always dreamed? HECK NO! Far from it I might note! But is it a good life? You bet your sweet butt it is!
You see, that very moment, at 2:19 pm on June 27, 1989, that I laid my eyes on that beautiful hot mess that changed my world, was the very moment that I knew that I had found my purpose in this world. I was meant to be a Mommy and I don't regret a moment of it!
Happy 23rd Birthday my beautiful hot mess! Mommy loves you and you will always be my favorite mistake! Without YOU, I wouldn't be ME! There are no mistakes in life...only destiny!